* Me Me Me *

Since the tummy started growing, i started to diss of taking photos ... no idea why ... i jus simply feel plain wats more wif the health being down ...

but for the benefit of a dear fren who been bugging me to see how i look now, i hope U are satisfied ... This was taken a week ago, now U know why no photo taking ...


Taken during one of the Las Wolves Bday

* Wonder *

U...
Do u know how i have been feeling of late? ...
Just emotionally feeling down ...
My morale & confidence level dipping ....
And it worsen when tears seems to be the next best fren

U ...
Do u know how i have been feeling of late? ...
Just physically tired ...
Waking up from the sleep is a chore...
And it worsen when nitemare haunts u almost every nite ...

U
Do u know how i have been feeling of late? ...
Just mentally exhausted ...
Mr migraine seems to like staying where it is ...
And it worsen, when the added stress keeps adding on ...

u know ... i think i had enuff ...
I, myself is unsure how much longer i can hold on to be the pillar ...
Its jus too tiring and pressurising ...
Tired, tired of trying not to hurt anyone's feeling .. but wat bout my own?...
Tired, tired of giving in to others ... but wat bout to my self
Tired, tired of pleasing everyone ... but what bout my happiness? ...

Simply said, i give up!!!

* Random Tots *

Its already into the 3rd week of January ... but it seems that so much things have been done during this short period of time .. lemme see ...

~ went for another round of house viewing (i wish i dun have to start all over again!!) but this time round, not many house to go as hub make up his mind upon seeing this particular one ... (thanks gdness!!!)
~ my very first time following hub for his nite soccer game @ the cage ... (tiring but oklah!!!)
~ had my Annual General Meeting (half of the day gone wasted!!!)
~ appt wif my solicitor with regards to the house (more headache definitely!!)
~ had my scan taken (like finally!!!), alhamdulilah the baby is doing alrite ...
~ start of my classes again (hectic schedule again definitely)
~ One of the Wolves bday celebration
~ hub start his weekly soccer games
~ first department meeting

On a lighter note, its my FIL bday today ... have not gotten anything for him yet (yikes!!)

Papa,
Happpy Bday to u ...
Thanks for pampering me & always being there for me ...
U are one of the best FIL one could ever asked for ...
Ur knowledge to things never fail to amaze me ...
Ur guidance & patience never fail to touch me ...
May happiness, success & health be with u always ...

Other than that, nothing much ... everything been fine, alhamdulilah & tummy is slowly growing ...

* MeMory Lane *

Its already the 4th day of the brand new year ... though its only 3 working days this week, i am kept busy wif the year end invoicing, closing and documentation ... not forgetting the endless filling ...

Looking ahead to a brand new year, its time to walk down memory lane first and reminisce on what 2006 have prepared me for 2007...

Some of the highlights that will always be embedded in my mind

January ~ an event during mid of the month shook me real bad, causing me to break down in depression ... but somehow i am glad cos the period of survival, i grew stronger and mature along the way ...

February ~ a close gf of mine is finally back after almost half a year gone ...

March ~ Farewell for one of my service manager which i closely worked with ...

Behind the smiles, i am crying on the inside

April ~Bday Celeb of my lil princess ...

i am still under alot of pressure till then since Jan

May ~ Found out that i was preggie

June ~ Alhamdulilah, situation got better and relations improve ... manage to get out of the depression ... at the same time, my in-laws off for their umrah


Not forgetting my first family trip to Jakarta


July ~ Mid of the month hit me with another painful event ... i got miscarriaged ... it jus happen like tat, no accident no nothing ... but thanks to the parents who are there for me & thanks to my hub & in-laws who whisked me to jakarta again to cheer me up

and this is the month where i decide to come back to blog world ... jus need a personal space

August ~ Farewell cum welcome dinner for my collicks in my department ...

The guy & gal on the rite left


while she joined us

Sept-Nov~ simply busy wif exhibitions and seminar ....
but in Nov, i have a slight gathering wif my frenz



Dec ~ my D&D held @ Goodwood park hotel ...

Candid photo of me


my best fren in red

my lil princess went Krabi with her parents ... obviously by the photo, she had fun



and not forgetting the event on Christmas Eve where my dear cuzzie gotten married

Preparation for nikah ... my handmade gubahans ...


His mum & the groom before leaving


Mummy dearest wif the most important thing!!


The sanding


The cuzzies


Wif my SIL


Last not least, a photo of my lil princess

After the hectic schedule, i left for destressing period to Batam wif my parents during the long weekend ... hub joined us on new year eve ... no photos were taken but i am glad i decide to make a trip up ...

Not much resolutions were made ... i am just glad that after all the turbulences that i gone thru, i am still in one piece, much stronger now ... though there bound to be more obstacles, insya'allah things will get better along the way ... for a start, i am already in my 5 months *winks*