* SiLLy MisTake *

Dun we just hated it ... when we had come to the roots of the problem but instead of solving it & making life easier to breathe, you end up making things more complicated ... and that is what precisely i have landed myself into ... arrgh ...

Despite knowing the heavy workload i have to face everyday and the hectic shedule of classes that i have to attend, i ended up committing myself in another class .. .how wonderful can that be ...

Dun ask me why i take that decision knowing jolly well that currently i have not much of a breather & this new commitment is going to squeeze more energy out of me .. no point regretting, sighing (that is what hub told me) and looking back hoping u cud change things...

Since i have already committed & knowing myself, i know i will still go thru & take things in my stride no matter how much i keep on complaining of being tired ... seriously, i asked for it ...

And of late, i have difficulty of falling asleep & by the time i really off to dreamland, i would be awaken by the alarm of my mobile ... hub say its probably that i am too exhausted, be it physically or mentally ... dun blame him for that reasoning cos the first thing i do after freshen up & dinner, its the books i head for ...

maybe hub is rite ... i am simply drained out & its so frustrating

* Moment To Ponder *

Sometimes it makes me really wonder, if this is what i really wanted in life ...

To be drained out of energy everyday & yet feeling miserable though the future looks rite on track ...
To be working so hard & yet feeling down despite the achievements attained ...
All of a sudden, i jus feel like i am alone on a deserted island ...

Of late, i jus realised that i work too hard that i tend to ignore everything & everyone around me ...
I keep myself busy 24/7 with work, class & more class to keep my mind off my loss, but i am still haunted by the past in my sleep ....
The only consolation to all that is having my hubby & family by me ...

Sometimes i feel @ lost but most of the time, i am jus too tired of everything ...
And i got no one to blame but myself as i choose to be on this path on my own ...

There is nothing else that can be done but jus to take everything in my stride slowly & hopefully, i will still come out in 1 piece (thanks momma zue, talking to you helps me to feel better ... and your cheerfulness have create a smile on me) ...

u know something, i miss the smile on my face & the old bubbly me ...

Friday is here again and which means its the weekend!!! ...

hopefully this time round, i will not be that tired as the previous week as i am already drained out for the week though i work 4 days instead of normal 5.

I went to the doc on Mon, thinking i got a sore throat since last thurs till now. Despite the many cough syrups drank, my throat condition worsen & affected my sleep. Turns out that i got throat infection instead. The cough syrup doesnt help a lil bit ...

Cleared my summer leave on Tues & planning to have some rest but i was wrong ... i got class in the morning since last sat was postponed after which hubby fetched me & dragged my papa for the JL sale ... it was packed despite the early hours & falls on a working day ... we then fetched ibu from werk & had lunch ... Send my in-laws home & hub drove me to my school to settle some stuff & we went home to fetch my in-laws again for tea-session before i got another class in the evening ... My tues is finally over after we met up with the house agent & the seller (thanks Jijah dear for your well wishes ... hopefully things turn out for the better) ...

Wed, i went back to Jurong home since it was the only free day. Mummy & Daddy is still not home when i went there ... apparently, they were in the ferry, on the way home ...

Half of my thurs was in the office, clearing the paperwerk while the latter was spend outside, meeting my customers ... went to class after i knocked off from work ...

No plans for today as of yet, but knowing hubby, its still too soon to say ... oops, i need to prepare to go meet my customers...

* BelaTed Bday Wish *

Its a day late but still not that late to wish my dear Big Bear a Happy Bday ...



Dear big bear, we have been frenz for more than 5 years ... we started out as strangers in Alamak Chat to someone that i can look upon to as my big bro ... we shared our sorrows and joys together ...

i can never thank u enuff for being there for me esp during the time that 'he' left for gd & always take gd care of me ... up till this date, the fav nick is always there cos somehow your beary hug gives me assurance to see thru life ... i will always remember the gd times we shared



Since its your bday though a day later, i wish u all the happiness & hope to see u settle down soon ... and i want u to know that u always be missed by your little baby sis ... *hugs*

Time really flies ... its been more than a week since i last blog ... initially i din notice until i decide to create an entry ...

nothing much happen the past week ... only revolve ard work, hub, family & classes ... thanks gdness for the no house viewing ....

been under the weather of late ... maybe cos of the heat or either that, i am jus simply lacking from the rest ... initially wanted to join my in-laws for a drive up to KL for the weekend but hub schedule is simply packed wif soccer matches .. there goes my short getaway ...

i knocked off early on Fri to head to Chijmes for some meeting @ Table 108 with a fellow collick after which we ended up having coffee @ Haagen Daaz ... Hubby fetched me from City Hall though we are car-less for the weekend & head to bugis for dinner wif my fren cum agent ... things looks bright on the house that hub set his eyes on ... (well Jijah, pray for me ... hopefully we got it) ... wanted to go somewhere to chill but changed of mind & head on home ...

Both of us woken up extra early on Sat as i rushed to my parents place to do some gubahan for mum's fren & hub headed for his soccer game ... its was quite hectic as i need to get everything done before 11 ... alhamdulilah, things turn out alrite ... meet up wif hubby after the game (congrats hunny on getting 2nd place!!! ) for lunchie @ Tampines before i head on to my class ...

We decide to catch a movie ... its been so long since we does that & grab the opportunity since the in-laws was away ..


The Thai Movie...

it was a gd movie which i enjoyed ... home suweet home after that ...

Sunday, i gave up halfway as i start to feel weak & sick ... din do anything much after class but jus waited for the time to come to accompany hub for another weekly Sun soccer match ...