*LosT W/O Uuuu*

It certainly wasnt easy .. to lead my life w/o u by my side..
My days seem empty and so were my nite ...
Staring into the walls & wonder how u were gone from my sight...
Living in darkness cos u were my lite ...

Gone is the strength in me to fite...
For wat i believe is rite ...
I sail thru life following the tide...
Not caring how i feel inside ...

*Gone Were The Days*

almost a week tat i haf not been blogging nor taggin anyone ... sorry peepz... its jus tat things haf not been on my side ... jus needed the time to be on my own... really on my own.. and somehow i was glad for the solitude.. it clears my mind off things .. and certainly put things back to the rite track

the early part of the week was spend mostly @ home after werk .. trying to nurse my health to recovery .. jus practically lazing on my bed, catching up wif my parents & straightening my room.... it was practically a normal routine of tired me ..

till hell broke loose in the later part of the week.... when tat someone tried to probe in my affairs of the heart ... and thanks to u, things started to go down the drain... my dearest decided to shut me off for 3 blardy days & left me hanging, claiming tat he needed space to think..

and tat is where i lost my direction... practically not knowing wat to do... aimless & lonely .... spend most of the time on my own.. trying to find the reason to things & the meaning of life ... amidst all the crowd out there, i was really lonely .... the beach were my companion most of the time ... as i spend most of the time, trying to find my own self ....

i guess enuff is enuff.... its either in or out to things .. i haf always hated the feeling of hanging .. wud rather suffer heartbreak, @ least u knows its over & move on.. but hanging, it leaves u neither here or there....

went over his place yesterday ... clear the air up,really clearing the matters up... and we 'kiss & made up'.... spend some quality time jus between us ... and suddenly the sky is clear again...

i feel much better ... really better .. as things are okies ... but somehow i am no longer tat positive ... maybe it require more time as i heal the wound along the way ...

*Words TO ShAre*

Living consciously is a state of bein mentally active rather than passive.
It is the ability to look @ the world thru fresh eyes.
It is intelligence taking joy in its own function.

Living consciously is seeking to be aware of everything tat bears on our interests, actions, values, purposes, & goals.
It is the willingness to confront facts, pleasant or unpleasant.
It is the desire to discover our mistakes & correct them.

Within the range of our interests & concerns, it is the quest to keep expanding our awareness & understanding, both of the world external to self & of the world within.
It is respect for reality & for the distinction between the real & the unreal.
It is the commitment to see wat we see & know wat we know.
It is recognition of the fact tat the act of dismissing reality is the root of all evil."

*TiRing WkEndz*

nothing much bein done ... mite due to the weather & my poor health... went back home straight on fri after knocking off from werk... jus plainly lazing ard @ home...

tot of going for my weekly gym routine but my lethargy body jus would not comply ... freshen up & got dressed & jus meet up my aunts for breakfast wif mummy ...dearest fetched after tat & headed to GWC... tot of catching a movie but it was fully booked everywhere .. (i guess sat is a bad movie day)... headed for lunch @ Bugis ... then its off to Yio Chu Kang for some 'Arowana' survey .... no idea why but dearest been going ga-ga over these fishes ... then its off to Parkway Parade .. was looking for some tops but nothing catches the eyes.. dearest end up buying his top from Springfield.. headed on home to catch soccer game .... dearest spend the nite @ my place ...

woken up extra early .. tot of going to the zoo... bein ages not been there ... but dear dad asked us to go for family bfast gathering .. so spend the very early part of the day wif my parents ... then its off to his place ... jus spending time wif his parents next & spend the later part of the morning playing games ...... headed to Downtown East, jus surveying wats new.. bump in to fellow blogger, Dila.... from there , headed on Tampines Mall for a light lunch & its off to my place again... practically doing nothing .. but being a couch potato; lazing & eating .. .

the weekend is not too gd.. cos i was not totally recovered .. so my fever went on/off... but i was glad .. cos i was really taken care of by dearest!!!

*My LoNg ThuRs*

took a whole day leave yesterday as i got to attend a court hearing ... blardy biskut... the hearing took almost half of my day ... as the hearing goes on, i got more lethargic... and the best part, i din know tat i was supposed to go for the witness stand ... well, there is always such a thing as a first timer for everything ... it was kinda a scary & painful experience but 'his' sms makes me withstand the whole court session.. *winks @ shazzy*

headed for late lunch @ Eunos wif the family ... din know there is a 'Makmur restaurant' there .. had my fill & they send me off to my dearest place .. spend some time wif his mom.... tot of teaching early .. but i went to slumberland after popping my fever pills ... so tuition is as per normal....

dearest came back last nite to send some of his things over ... had a slight tiff wif dearest (all thanks to his kaypoh ex-fiancee)... tat was the final straw for me ... so U, yes U, jus pray tat u neva bump into me cos u jus crossed my line ...

we 'kiss and made up' after tat .. and dearest send me home ... he stayed over for the nite .... though things are okies.. i am still all furious ... *argh*

werk was hectic tdy ... lotsa orders but i cant process them.. cos my department jus change the computer ... & my SAP system can only be installed on Mon... *sigh*....

neway.. its the weekend again .... dearest reservist is over!!!..... need to do alot of stuff over the weekend ... hmmm, wonder if things gonna get better or worst for me ...

to all, haf a gd weekend

*LoNeLy*

Waking Up To a Brand New Day....
Hoping To Find A Better Meaning to Life..
But Then, My Hopes Were DasHed..
AS I Find The sAme WhiTE waLLs surrounded me ...

I Tot I haF Left The Past Behind Me...
But Somehow the ghost Manage to Haunt Me ..
Making Me fall or worst, makes me plunge...
But Still I got To pick up & Move on...

Its gonna be hard...
Its gonna be tough...
Its gonna be heart wrenching ..
But do i haf any choice???...

How i really wish ...
But alas, somethings are jus there to stay ..
Wish Me the Best Of luck..
AS i go thru The thorns of the past ...

*My MiDWeEk*

Werk had been certainly one hectic week for me .. cos of the shutdown coming up... so its gonna be one helluva of time ...

supposedly to teach tuition on Mon... but decided to head straight on home .... rested all the way on the sofa before my body decide to give way ... i was down wif fever & flu.... i guess all the pressure & stress finally caught up wif me ... din even realise tat dearest came over late @ nite... i was already in dreamland..

woken up & gotten dressed for werk on tues .. though body was not willing ... (stubborn me!!!)... dear mummy was nagging & nagging... finally decide to skip werk & headed to the doc instead .... i tot i was having a slight fever ... but then my temperature was 38.4... tat was certainly high .... spend my whole tues @ home, jus sleeping & sleeping ....

was suppose to be on mc again today .. but decided to go to werk .. jus scared tat my werk will piles up.. true enuff... am glad to make the decision to come ...

am still groggy & weak.. but then ... leaving wif no choice for now...

*My WEeKendz*

headed on home after knocking off from Fri ... freshen up & gotten dressed while waiting for a fren to fetch me ... heading on to Lau Pa Sat for the 'Kota Singa' dinner gathering...it had certainly been months since i last saw them... & i certainly misses the jokes & laughter...tot of staying for dinner for a while, since my migraine acting up.. but all the fun makes me stay all the way ..hehehe... thanks to my fren for fetching & sending me home ...

got dressed again & headed on to Newton to meet a dearie for a short drink before heading on to some other place... waited for my monster, Anna & Mas to join us ... finally agreed to go to my playground, China Jump... had a blast of a time ... meeting up wif familiar faces & practically letting my hair down...then its home sweet home ...

gotten up early on sat morning .. tot of going for gym.. but then i was too plain lazy & weather was not kind on me .. jus lepakz @ home .. decline the offer of joining my aunts for their weekly bfast gathering since my parents not in town...went over to gran though for a short visit ... then waited for dearest to come over after booking out from camp.... both of us freshen up & got dressed & headed to his aunt place for 'Tahlil'.... after which headed on home to spend some time wif my parents before off to slumberland ...

woken up late on a sunday morning, skip gym & bfast gathering .. got dressed & followed my parents to 2 weddings, one was @ West Coast while the latter @ Pasir Ris... *sigh* .. wanted to skip going but cant since my family were close to their family ...my dearest family fetched my parents & i after the wedding @ Pasir Ris & headed to my bro place ... had gd time playing wif my niece.. *missing her*....then all of us headed to dearest place.. jus chit-chatting .. i guess its the parent-parent thingy ... dearest parent drove my parent home while me & dearest headed to my fav haunt, Raimah for our tea-session.... tot of spending time jus the 2 of us .. but then we spoke too soon..heheheh.... dearest family came & joined us .... then its ofg to home .. dearest spend the nite over @ my place ....

hmm.. my weekend is well spend .. but @ the same time .. things are not goin tat well.. lets jus say tat i am in an emtional basket ....

*WondERful Wed*

Weather was nice in the morning .. all cooling & wet ... since it was hot the nyte before .... dearest woke me up in the morning before he left for camp... decided to wear my normal office attire though am taking half the day off...

werk was hectic but lucky me, i manage to get it done ... headed to Paya Lebar to meet up a dear fren for lunch... it was gd.. my 2 dear ladies, mini-me & monster joined us shortly ... after which headed on to TP @ Ubi since i gotta clear some stuff....

since it had been set on all gals outing, we move on to Bugis & lepakz @ a cafe.. nice ambience ... had lotsa fun jus yakking away, catchin up on individual life & snapping photos like nobody biz... too bad my gdcam is still not wif me *sobs*.. heheh.. (which means i gotta be patient to wait for mini-me ..hehehe)... but manage to get one thru her mobile



after bout 2 hrs, we headed on to bugis junction for a while before we separated.. headed on home (thanks dearies... i had a gd time, really gd time).. .... tot of taking a rest .. but as usual, dear mummy cant see me to be back home early so ended up to my aunt place instead after freshen up.....

ended my nite quite early .. too tired though but contented wif the day.. but @ the back of my mind, i am still missing him...

*MiSsiNg U BadLy*

Do u know tat my mind runs to u every minute of the day..
Do u know tat i have been missing u loads & loads...
Do u know how big an impact u haf left in me....
Do u know how much u really mean to me....

There is definitely no words to describe in me ...
To how much tat feelings grow deeper each day..
I wish i cud stay in ur arms & neva walked away..
But then again, no words need to be said ..

cos u already knew
U know wat is in me ...
U know wat my feelings are...
U know tat i am always there...

My body wanted to go & leave
but my soul & heart simply refuse to budge..
It rather stay & left me confused & dazed
And keep u embedded in my mind regardless in wateva state

wishing for nothing but to be in ur arms...
To make me feel safe & secured...
Ur care & concern means my world...
But alas, things dun always go the way u wanted..

*Sobs*

*EaRly WeeKs*

supposedly to head straight to LPS to meet a dearie for dinner after knocking off from werk on Mon, but was told to alight @ City Hall instead coz he picking me up from there.. .but we still gotten our dinner @ LPS & i finally indulge in my craving for Stingray ... had a wonderful time yaking & yaking ...from there, headed to Katong to meet my dear monster & her frenz .... were a bit late cos there was a big traffic jam @ ECP..but it was a gd gathering & i was savouring every minute of it .. (din took any photo as my dgcam still wif my bro).. so it was monster who was bz snapping away .... went home early as dearest got to book out from camp & gonna spend the nite @ my place ... din manage to get a gd nyte sleep though cos both of us had a big argument but as usual we "kiss & made up" shortly after tat....

headed to dearest place yesterday for his bro tuition .. (been almost 2 weeks of absence..hehehe).... spend some time wif his parents before they drove me home ... dearest got booked out again last nite ... heheheh.. so its off to my place again ...wanted to tuck in early but the weather was unbearable ....

a big downpour today .. yeehaw... lucky me as i am in my boots .. & they definitely keep me comfy ...werk is not tat hectic tdy .. taking the later half of the day off .. heading to TP to clear some stuff ... meeting up wif my monster & mini-me layter .... defintely looking forward to tat ..not seen mini-me since she was back...

*My WeEKenDz*

Spend 3 blissful days wif my dearest before he went for his in-camp reservist today ... *sobs*.. missing him loads loads...

knocking off from werk on fri, meet up wif dearest @ Tiong Bahru & headed on to Great World City ...went to catch "Van Helsing" .. nice movie & am glad tat i brought along my shawl.. if not, i wud freeze..heheh... but i jus simply lurve to catch a show @ GWC cos it is so comfy ... after which, decided to go for dinner @ Adam Road but the place was simply too crowded...

meet up wif dearest @ Commonwealth after he knocked off from werk on sat & me from gym & headed to Bugis for lunch... since me been craving for Chicken Rice ... headed on to his place & jus simply lazing ard ...both of us were like small kids, hoggin @ the playstation.. waited for time to passes by before heading to his aunt place to catch soccer ... MAN U vs Chelsea... initially tot of catchin it outside but then our playstation delayed us ...heheheh ....my team almost win but it ended up in a draw.. its okies ..cos Chelsea is still in the 2nd placing .. yeehaw... this time round, we managed to get dinner @ Adam Road after soccer..

dearest came over on Sunday early afternoon ... headed to Suntec for my GELARE ice-cream since the weather killing us before lunch @ Bugis .... and since dearest need to prepare for his reservist, where else would we headed to?.. Beach Road .. to get all his stuff... was practically perspiring, spending half of my afternoon there.. went back his place where more packing need to be done ... but he did the packing alone.. while me, off to dreamland ...hehehe...
had our early dinner before heading to IMM to get his last minute toiletries... and its home sweet home ...

werk is definitely hectic in the office tdy .. my exec is on medical leave, leavin me to clear up the weekend pile....*sigh*

*THanK GoD ITs FriDAy*

the weekend is here again... cant wait ....oops .. actually sad to say dreading .... heheh..
which is which now... i also not sure ....

one thing i know.. i need the weekend to catch up wif my rest ... really resting ..cos last week roller coaster ride haf taken its toll.... plus the hectic werk.... my mind wandering off to my bed hugging the pillows ...

nothing on the agenda yet ... not planning on anything much.. cos my dearest will be on in-camp reservist for the next 2 weeks .. sigh.. gonna miss him loads...really missing him...

i guess tats bout it .... u guys haf a gd weekend na.. *hugs*

*RaHsia DI SebAlik CiuMan LElaki*

guess it is really sleepy day in the office .. been receiving lotsa email from my dear collicks ... but this looks interesting to share.. so ladies.. how lucky can u get???


Ciuman atau Kucupan pada Tangan

Jika seorang lelaki mencium belakang tangan anda, itu tandanya si dia menyanjung dan menghormati anda. Lelaki atau sesiapa sahaja yg bersopan akan mengucup orang yg dihormati dan disanjunginya pada bahagian belakang tangan orang yg berkenaan. Ini biasanya dilakukan oleh seorang anak terhadap ibu bapanya, seorang bawahan ke atas atasannya, seorang murid terhadap gurunya dan seterusnya....
Jarang berlaku seorang lelaki mengucup tangan pasangan wanitanya, apatah lagi seorang suami kepada isterinya. Jika berlaku juga sedemikian, itu menandakan si lelaki berkenaan benar-benar menyanjungi dan menghormati wanita tersebut sebagai seorang yg istimewa dalam hidupnya.


Ciuman di Dahi

Selalu juga kita saksikan seorang lelaki mencium pasangan wanitanya di dahi. Apakah tandanya?
Jika anda pernah dihadiahkan sebuah kucupan di dahi ,itu tandanya si dia begitu kasih terhadap anda. Dan kasihnya begitu kudus. Anda dapat berasakan getaran kasihnya pada anda begitu syahdu.


Ciuman Sayang
Jika pasangan anda mengucup anda di pipi, itu tandanya si dia sayang pada anda. Malah jika anda sedang marah dan dia tiba2 mencium pipi anda, itu maknanya dia tetap sayang pada anda walaupun apa yg terjadi. Malah ciuman sayang di pipi sering dihadiahkan oleh sang suami kepada isteri dalam suasana gurau senda dan ceria. Begitu juga apabila suami baru pulang dari kerja atau berjalan jauh, satu ciuman di pipi menandakan dia sayangkan anda, rindukan anda dan cintanya pada anda terus bersemi.


Ciuman Cinta

Saat anda sedang berdiri, tiba2 suami anda datang sambil memegang kedua pangkal lengan anda. Lalu anda dan dia saling berhadapan sehingga wajah anda bertembung dengan wajahnya.Lalu sebuah kucupan hinggap di bibir anda. Itu tandanya sebuah ciuman cinta sedang ditebarkan. Anda tetap dicintainya, bahkan kian hangat sehangat ciuman yang terhinggap.


Kucupan dari Belakang

Pernahkan anda dikejutkan oleh suami anda dengan kucupan dari arah belakang? Contohnya sedang anda sibuk mencuci pinggan, tiba2 pasangan anda menerpa dari arah belakang dan mengucup tengkuk dan pipi anda. Ini menunjukkan betapa pasangan anda begitu geram terhadap anda. Dan anda pun terasa terngiang bulu roma di saat itu. Namun anda patut berasa senang hati kerana tahu tahu betapa dia terngidamkan anda!


Kucupan Lutut

Hah! Betapalah lelaki ini telah rebah ke kaki anda. Benar, jika anda terjumpa lelaki yg sanggup mencium lutut anda, biarpun masih beralaskan pakaian, itu tandanya sudah teruk benar minatnya terhadap anda. Dalam hal ini, mudah pula anda mengambil kesempatan kerana dia akan tunduk pada setiap kemahuan anda.


Ciuman Di hujung Kaki

Ia amat jarang dilakukan oleh kebanyakan dari kita melainkan dalam sesetengah budaya dan adat resam India. Jika ada juga lelaki luar melakukannya , ia kira sudah luar biasa. Perlakuan ciuman di hujung kaki yang bukan kerana adat, itu petanda si lelaki berkenaan sudah terlalu merendah diri dan terlampau memuja anda.Anda boleh menganggap si dia boleh diperlakukan apa saja oleh anda. tapi, tengoklah juga. Lelaki pandai berlakon dan mungkin dia cuma melakonkan saja utk mendapat perhatian anda sedang hakikatnya tidak boleh diperlakukan seperti yg anda tafsirkan. Apa pun, kucupan sedemikian tidak seharusnya dilakukan.

*Men*

How true is it?.. u be ur own judge.. jus something tat create a smile on a wet Wed

1. The nice men are ugly.

2. The handsome men are nt nice.

3. The handsome & nice men are gay.

4. The handsome, nice & heterosexual men are married.

5. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men, haf no money.

6. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men wif money think we are only after their money.

7. The handsome men w/o money are after our money.

8. The handsome men, who are not so nice & somewhat heterosexual, dun think we are beautiful enough.

9. The men who think we are beautiful, tat are heterosexual, somewhat nice & haf money,are cowards.

10. The men who are somewhat handsome, somewhat nice & haf some money & thank God are heterosexual,are shy & NEVER MAKE THE FIRST MOVE!!!!

11. The men who neva make the first move,automatically lose interest in us wen we take the initiative.

*My WeeKendZ*

this weekend haf been a roller coaster ride for me ... almost lost tat particular someone due to my own mistakes but i am really, really glad tat things were given a second chance & manage to resolve things ... wishing hard tat the memory of the fri nyte were erased from my mind, but i cant... its hard, really hard...

spend half of my sat morning getting my emotions & mind stable ... was ready to face wateva decision being made ... but i guess i am not tat strong when it comes to the affairs of the heart anymore .... freshen up & gotten dressed, headed to dearest place ... it feel so gd to be back in his arm .. & we 'kiss & made up'.... spend half the day @ his place wif his parents and him before heading to Al-Majlis for an early dinner & headed to town as i wanted to do some window shopping but nothing caught the eye... off to Holland Village for our indulgence of Haagen-daaz ice-cream before heading on home ...

meet up dearest @ City Hall on Sunday afternoon & headed to Taka.. .went SHOPPING!!!.... bought some tops for him .... decided to drop by FCUK (our fav brand but his mainly) but nothing nice .... went to Noveva Sq for our late lunch before heading to Tampines Mall to get my tops ... (more shopping !!! ) ... wanted to catch a movie initially but on second tots, headed to his place .. jus lazing ard....

since it was PH for my company yesterday, spend the time cleaning up the room in the early part & spending some time wif my parents ... headed to Mustafa Centre & Sungei Road after prayer... it was daddy first time on NEL line ..


mummy & me in the train

had fun time jus walking ard ..... dearest fetch @ Bugis MRT after knocking off from werk... & headed to his place (whoa.. tat makes it 3 days in a row.. hehehe) had our dinner before left for Queensway S.C .... had our tea-session @ McCafe West Coast Park before heading on home

though it was a long weekend ... i was in an emotional basket ... but then things turn out to be alrite .. and i am so glad ... but i didnt manage to get proper rest .... no one to blame for it but me, myself....

*Gd EmaiL*

my collick send me this during lunch time ... cant help agreeing after reading ..

Kecantikan Lelaki

Kecantikkan seorang lelaki bukan kepada rupa fizikal tetapi pada murni rohani.
Lelaki yang cantik,
Adalah lelaki yang mampu mengalirkan airmata untuk ingatan,
Adalah lelaki yang sedia menerima segala teguran,
Adalah lelaki yang memberi madu,setelah menerima racun,
Adalah lelaki yang tenang dan lapang dada,
Adalah lelaki yang baik sangka dan,
Adalah lelaki yang tak pernah putus asa.

Kecantikkkan lelaki berdiri di atas kemuliaan hati,
Seluruh kecantikan yang ada pada Muhammad yang umi,
Adalah kecantikan yang sempurna seorang lelaki.

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Kegagahan Wanita

Kegagahan seorang wanita bukan kepada pejal otot badan, tetapi pada kekuatan perasaan,
Perempuan yang gagah,
Adalah perempuan yang tahan menerima sebuah kehilangan,
Adalah perempuan yang tidak takut pada kemiskinan,
Adalah perempuan yang tabah menangung kerinduan setelah ditinggalkan,
Adalah perempuan yang tidak meminta-minta agar di penuhi segala keinginan,
Kegagahan perempuan berdiri di atas teguh iman,
Seluruh kegagahan ini ada pada Khatijah yang ehsan.
Adalah kegagahan sempurna bagi seorang perempuan... ...