*YeaREndz*

The last day of the year is finally here.... looking back on my journey of life 2003, makes me glad tat the new year is round the corner ...time flew by fast w/o realising it... the year has been a real battle for me. i went thru more pains & losses...

the battle between myself & problems in life is not over yet, & it will never will until my last breath... had enuff of the year to make me realise a few things bout myself. it also had made me stronger & had my feet planted firmly to the ground.

the woes (cant remember all but a few tat make my yr)..
this early part of the year had been a traumatising year for me. Firstly my engagement was called off... though it put me in a shock but we broke up in a gd manner & are still frenz till now.. then my late Bf & one of the WarPigs members passed away unexpectedly in April due to an accident.... my granny dearest was admitted to AH & was in ICU cos of heart failure ...

the joys
but the other half of the yr took to a turning point & the year looks much brighter ... the admittance of my granny dearest makes the bond of family closer & ties improved alot .. i picked up the pieces of my life & moved on..... make a few gd frenz.. improve old ties... spend more quality time wif my parents.. but the moments when it really create a wide smile in me is when i met my dearest .. .since then, he is the light of my life, being there for me each moment & guiding to a better ME.

after all tat i went thru... i learn alot, awfully alot ... i learn not to be bothered by wat pplz got to say bout me ... cos its their gift of gab ... the most important thing is to be happy ...the more bothered i am, the more they will try to put me down... those words doesnt hurt anymore cos in me, there is no hatred or revenge.. but its only love & compassion.. so say wat u got to say .. my conscience is free..

really looking forward to 2004 .... new roles and responsibilities to play ... new resolutions to achieve ... new life to lead...

i guess tats enuff to now... wishing all a Happy New Year..

*LifePartner*

Something tat i stumble which does makes a lot of sense... enjoy the story...

Once upon a time, there was a teacher & his student lying down under a big tree near a big grass area. Then, suddenly, the student asked the teacher,

Student : Teacher, Im confused, how can we find our soul-mate? Can U pls help me?
Teacher : (Silent for few second, then he answer) Well, its a pretty hard & easy qns.
Student : (Thinking hard) Huh???
Teacher : Look on tat way, there are a lot of grass there, why dun U walk there but pls never walk backward, just walk straight ahead.On Ur way, try to find a beautiful grass & pick it up then give it to me. But just one.
Student : Well, ok then... wait for me... (walked straight ahead to the grass field).

A few minutes later...
Student : Im back.
Teacher : Em, well I dun see any beautiful grass on Ur hand.
Student : On my journey, I found few beautiful grass, but I tot tat I would find a better one, so I didnt pick it up. But I didnt realize tat Im @ the end of the field, & I hadnt picked up any. Cause U told me not to go back, so I didnt go back.
Teacher : That's what happened in real life.

What is the message of this story?
* Grass - is people around U
* Beautiful Grass - is people that attract U
* Grass Field - is time
* In looking for Ur soulmate, pls dun always compare & hope tat there will be a better one. By doing that, U waste Ur lifetime, cause remember "Time Never Goes Back".

It applies the same in finding Ur ideal life partner, Ur suitable career or business, therefore the morale is LOVE & grab hold of the opportunity tat U hav now, dun waste time!

~There Can Be Only One~

*tIme*

This email from a colleague makes me realise how precious time can be!!

TO REALIZE

To realize the value of a sister
Ask someone who dun hav one.

To realize the value of ten years
Ask a newly divorced couple.

To realize the value of four years
Ask a graduate.

To realize the value of one year
Ask a student who has failed a final exam.

To realize the value of nine months
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.

To realize the value of one month
Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realize the value of one week
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize the value of one hour
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.

To realize the value of one minute:
Ask a person who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize the value of one-second
Ask a person who has survived an accident.

To realize the value of one millisecond
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics.

To realize the value of a friend
Lose one.

Time waits For no one.
Treasure every moment you have.
U will treasure it even more when U can share it with someone special.

*Hatred*

Why cant u jus accept the fact tat is way over between us...
Why do u keep harping on tat matter again & again...
Does it makes u feel better by doing tat?...
Does it makes u feel happier if i took the blame?..
Does it makes ur sleep more peaceful having my so-called frenz siding u?

If it does.. by all means.. i rather take the blame...
you can have my frenz if u wan
Taking the blame doesnt mean i admit defeat...
Its jus i cant be bothered ..
No point standing for my rights cos its only makes matter ugly..

I make the mistake, i betrayed u (tats wat u said)...
U dissapointed wif me & my actions
Its fine wif me ...

What is done cannot be undone..
Its done & over with...
Dun blame fate for everything .. somethings are never meant to be yours..
The hatred u have in u towards me is so unbearable .. nothing i can do ... let the hatred eat urself up..
cos there is no hatred nor revenge in me..
But i wan u to know.. i am happy now, happier than where i used to be..

*SmilEZ*

It has been some time tat baby not blogging.. to be exact, its been 10 days since i last blog.... within tat period of time, so many things been happening to me... its not tat i left the blogging world.. its jus tat baby could not find the right words to describe how i felt...

my life for the past few days is neither a roller coaster ride nor a bed of roses.. its more like waves lapping against the shore .. things happen for the good.. somehow it makes me feel better, wiser & i am so glad tat it happen...

werk has definitely been hectic especially the second half of the month .. so much need to be done.. stock taking.. account closing.. invoice clearing ... purchases made .. outstanding delivery & the list could go on & on... besides tat many upcoming events to be celebrated ... looking forward to each one of them...

during this period ... i lost a few frenz, more like so called frenz... but i am glad & not regretting even for a minute .. real frenz never pull u down or make u fall, instead they are there to guide u & to be there for u... so pplz out there who rather see me fall, i guess its enuff... you played wif the wrong person.. jus start to pray damn hard tat u wun cross my path again ....

enuff bout tat ... other than my bz werk schedule and all these petty pest lurking in my life, i am happy the way i am leading my life ... with my dearest family, my dearest & my frenz, true frenz...

enuff bout tat for now.. looking forward to later as it is my mummy dearest bday.. gonna have a small dinner gathering.. cant wait to knock off and meet my dearest..

**YoU**

Thousand qns seem to come across my mind
But then, i rather not know the ans as it is too late
Why, why only now u realised
Tat the world is not tat beautiful if lose tat special someone

I guess its true when pplz say U will only know how much a person meant to u until u lose it ...
U let me go jus like tat & keep me hanging ...
Jus as i grew stronger & moves on, u came back to rekindle the love..
But i wonder.. do u realise how much hurt U caused

The cat is out of the bag ..
The betrayal tat i felt is beyond words..
U are forgiven but not forgotten
Cos every mistake U make make me stronger ..

Those memories of us will be tucked safely
The happy moments, joys & woes...
But i guess its too late ..
Cos the hurt has taken over the love i had in U b4...

All i can say is i am sorry for everything..
Thanks for those times ... but there is no way i can pick up those pieces anymore

*HeCtIc*

it has certainly been a hectic week for baby since the first day of the festive month ... and since it is already december, i guess it gonna get worse ... Hari Raya was an ok thingy for me .. didnt do much house visitng, only went to my dearest gran on the first day & its back to office the next day ... werk been piling up each day as year end is only like weeks to go.. so much to be done & yet so little time ..

the only thing tat perks me up was a 7 generation gathering @ Melaka on my mummy dearest side last sat ... it was the first time & i certainly meet a lot of my relatives ... & also the WarPigs bikers House Visiting yesterday .. to think we covered almost islandwide...

December is sure to be a hectic month for me ... my werkplace is having its D&D @ Orchard hotel on the 19th.... its farewell dinner for one of my manager who is going back for gd on the 22nd @ Carlton (trust them to organise it on my bday!!!!).... and poor me is one of the committee members which only means endless meeting....

Its also a joyous month as many of my loved ones are celebrating their bday.. my mummy dearest, my cuz, my uncle, 2 of my warpigs bikers & not forgetting myself... am sure in a holiday mood for now.. till then, u pplz have a gd day..